I’ve been blogging for a couple of years now and if you don’t keep a journal of some sort, write, blog, or just have time for yourself to process everyday, you might want to think about scheduling some time. It doesn’t have to be a long time, but I find that when I write, or blog in this case, it helps me sort out what I have accomplished, what I want to work on next, and sometimes to just reflect for 10 minutes. The current work on my design wall has been a couple of months to daily process loss.
Many years ago my sister Barb bought a knife block for us, leaving one slot empty so we could shop for another knife the following Christmas. Shortly after that first Christmas she was diagnosed with Leukemia, and we never went shopping together again. It took almost 6 years for me to fill the last empty knife slot in my Wustoff block. That empty slot in the knife block was a painful, daily reminder that there weren’t going to be any more Christmas mornings with her. There is a difference between knowing someone is gone, and accepting, and it’s taken me a long time to accept her death. This quilt has been therapeutic, and while it didn’t start out that way, it’s been cathartic, too, as I’ve sifted through a life-time of memories while sewing this, laughed at some of our shenanigans I hadn’t thought of in years, and remembered the good, way more than the bad.
While this isn’t quite finished yet, it has sort of taken on a life of it’s own, and I’ll just know when it’s done. In the mean time, I’m having a good time working, processing, and finally taking the journey of letting go.